so maybe i'll become an essayist

i've been thinking about writing a collection of essays relating to my thoughts and beliefs. don't know if i'll actually do it. i think you have to believe in proper capitalization to be an essayist. if you want a clue to what my first essay would be about listen to cripple and the starfish by antony and the johnsons. you people'll probably never see those essays, but you can certainly guess at their contents.

It's true I always wanted love to be
Hurtful
And it's true I always wanted love to be
Filled with pain
And bruises

Yes, so Cripple-Pig was happy
Screamed " I just compeletely love you!
And there's no rhyme or reason
I'm changing like the seasons
Watch! I'll even cut off my finger
It will grow back like a Starfish!
It will grow back like a Starfish!
It will grow back like a Starfish!"

Mr. Muscle, gazing boredly
And he checking time did punch me
And I sighed and bleeded like a windfall
Happy bleedy, happy bruisy

ha, my brain's wacky. try and figure it out.